God's faithfulnes through our infertility

Would you believe in God if you saw a miracle? 

Over the last 7 years of our marriage we have seen miracle upon miracle...

At 21 and 24 years old we were worried when we didn't fall pregnant after a year. We did all the tests and were told we had unknown infertility (It all looked great on paper they couldn't find a cause for our infertility) we could try treatment or otherwise we were still young and had plenty of time and could just keep trying.

Miracle #1 a husband who stands by and grows in love for his wife who struggles. Infertility can really strain marriages but thanks be to God Mike has supported me, done everything he possibly can and we have enjoyed the last 7years together and grown more in love for each other. We are thankful for this time and haven't seen it as wasted years waiting for a baby.

Miracle #2

We ran out of our savings completely.. Not only had we run out of ideas on what to try after 4 years but we had found like a lot of couples who struggle with infertility our $20,000 savings had been completely used up.
That's without trying IVF and that was the next expensive stage we faced and then guess what a Bulk-Bill IVF centre opened up and were one of the first couples to get access to it.

Miracle #3 

The people who struggle with infertility...3 dear friends and couples had struggled with infertility who we knew and had successfully all had children. Over the last 7 years we saw another 3 of our best friends struggle with infertility. That still blows my mind.. what are the chances that 3 of your best friends would also all struggle. All eventually fell pregnant. Then we decided we needed to make new friends who still struggled.. We made some friends in a couple at college who finished up now ..we made an open invite to people at Mikes college who struggled with infertility also..Only one couple came even though a lot more probably silently struggle. The couple who came had infertility for 14 years what a blessing fellowship with them is. They like our other friends above have never had children. It is always amazing to see how people live beyond trials disappointments and suffering with such joy and all couples we are friends with have this joy despite some of them not having children.

Miracle #4 after 6 years of infertility we make this claim too. One of our favourite bible verses has been over the years: 

Habakuk 3:17-19
"Though the fig tree does not bud and there is no fruit on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,yet I will triumph in Yahweh;I will rejoice in the God of my salvation!Yahweh my Lord is my strength;He makes my feet like those of a deer and enables me to walk on mountain heights!"

When you believe in God it means you trust him with your desires and the outcomes. You recognise you can do and bring about nothing without him and you trust and seek him for all you do in life. This has made infertility bearable and then a joy. We know God loves us and he could make us fall pregnant if he wanted to. We know when he hasn't brought this about pray has still been answered and it wasn't his plan.

Miracle #5

***Our last of 6 embryos took and in early January we are having a baby. **
Drs still don't know why it's worked this time and not previously. I think what if we had only created 4 embryos or what if we had created 20!! Gods timing is perfect and it feels surreal that this has happened. What a joy to share this over the phone and in person with close family and friends. So many people know of our struggles after 6 years, 4 houses and 4 church's. It is exciting to share with you all too in fact I don't think the excitement will ever wear off our whole lives!

But I'm not surprised if your not converted to believe in a higher power just because you've heard how amazing our God is and how he has worked. It takes more than our Baby's new life to do that..it takes a different sort of new life to do that one Jesus offers in his death for our sins and resurrection which offers you new life aka rebirth. Just like he made a baby out of nothing in a barren woman like me he can create a new life and heart in you. You just need to seek Jesus for reconciliation with God crack open a bible and read what God has done for you and ask to be restored into a relationship with God and trust that he can and will do all this.

Miracle #6 being in a relationship with God..we had this precious miracle from the beginning. This amazing transformation has been the miracle in our lives since ages 14yrs and 21yrs old. It is better than even a baby because it's available to everyone and it guarantees a perfect relationship that doesn't disappoint and a life beyond death which is impossible to find on this earth. Like our baby it's a gift we don't deserve or can't claim "IOUs" on its free just because God is gracious.

A big thanks to our friends and family who have been so supportive. Who have loved and stuck with us when we have said and done the wrong thing because we have been hurting , who have been so generous to us physically giving so much and who have prayed and encouraged us till now.
If you know anyone who struggles with infertility look after them well..and point them in our direction if it's helpful. It will always be something close to our heart and a way we would love to care for people.
Thanks for reading the most heartfelt public message..make that essay I have ever written.

Pip Taylor